Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Hey, it's May

Hi. It's me. I forgot I had this blog. Let me update you on my life.

I have a 3 month old baby.
I am working again.
I am playing bass again.
I am usually stressed out and not thinking straight.
I haven't had much time for anything.

Ok, now that we are up to speed, let me ramble for a while.
Aaron is the best. I am obsessed.
I don't mean to rhyme, but I do it all the time.

Anyways. I'm not going to lie, being a mom is HARD. You don't get much sleep, you don't get time for yourself, you are always stressed out, and simple things like going to the grocery store are a chore and take hours of planning and preparation. Everything revolves around breastfeeding. Breastfeeding while out and about is NOT my favorite. I'm not the biggest fan of it in general, but of course I just want to do what's best for Aaron. I don't know if it's just me that's totally awkward while out in public with the baby, but sometimes I have the hardest time. Lugging the diaper bag, my purse, the stroller, his carseat, the actual baby (because he hates being in his carseat) blah blah blah.

The simplest things become luxuries once you have a baby. A shower. Making a sandwich. Eating a cookie. Brushing your hair/teeth. Yesterday I was home with Aaron most the day (it was my day off) and when Johnny was home for a couple hours, I took a shower and felt like a new person. When I was in the shower, I pretended like I was somewhere else. I tend to do this...every time I'm in the shower now. But the minute you step out of the shower...back to reality. Johnny can't seem to handle things on his own sometimes. 9 times out of 10, when I get out of the shower, the baby is crying or Johnny is walking into the bathroom asking me questions or telling me things I need to do. ARG. My 10 minute vacation is over.

Pumping. At work. Talk about a HASSLE.

Aaron is a stong willed boy. He has Johnny's personality, all the way. He gets bored easily, and he is STRONG. Try putting a diaper on that child. Haha. I'm glad he has a strong personality. But I won't lie, it does make some things harder. He is also the fart king.

Anyways, that is my ramble.
I'm hoping in the next few days I can have a few hours to myself, just to drive around, get a cherry limeade, think, listen to music, and maybe do some shopping. We'll see. I really need something like that right now.

Until next time...