tameloy: November 2010

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

read at your own risk.

I am not happy.
With life, with my career (or lack thereof), with my friends in Jax (oh wait...), with ANYTHING.

I have not been this unhappy in a long time.
I don't know what to do. It's Christmas. I need to be happy. I am TRYING.

I am not happy playing music anymore. There. I said it.

I don't know what to do.

There are so many cliques here. I guess people don't think I'm: A. Spiritual enough B. Normal enough C. Single enough??? I don't know. My "friends" lately have been telling me "We need to hang out! I'm going to call you!".....Lies.

I don't fit in here. People don't understand me. I guess I'm too...crazy? In Lake City people didn't give a crap. Alabama was ideal. Maybe I should move back there.

I need to find my niche.

I am so confused and don't understand what the heck I'm doing.

No judgements please. Blogs are for venting. Sometimes.

I'm going to bed.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Christmas List!

I've been asked by certain family members to make a Christmas list. No matter how old I get, this never gets old. It's soooo fun!

Pete & Pete season 1. I have season 2 and now I must make my collections complete. It's just not the same ordering one disc at a time from Netflix.

Betsey Johnson watch. I love all her stuff!

The new Top Secret Restaurant Recipes cookbook came out! It has the Cracker Barrel chocolate CocaCola cake recipe in it! AHHHH!

Victoria's Secret Bombshell. It smells yummeh.

All of the Hallmark Peanuts (& Disney) ornaments they have out this year.

This necklace from Etsy.com! (Johnny has already been clued in on this one...)

I have always wanted this candle from Anthropologie, but could never bring myself to pay 20 something dollars for it. That's what a Christmas list is for.